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a darkness is upon us.  i feel there is this gaping void all around me, wherever I turn.  a great big emptiness that's pulling me in.  should I follow?  or stay behind?  what keeps me from letting the forces take me?  what keeps me from stepping back?  why do I fear my life without it?  why can't I find a reason to go on?  why can't I live with being adequate?  why can't I see myself the way others do--intelligent, full of promise, beautiful, and a million different other things?  maybe i'm hopeless.  destined to live a life of emptiness, desperation, always wanting more, always saying "what if I had done something different?" when can I quit asking when?