i don't know how to take a compliment. maybe it's because i don't believe it. or maybe i don't want to believe it. or maybe it's because the compliment makes me worry about those outside the conversation who aren't getting the same compliment. I never know what to say to them. Do I return the compliment? do I just thank them and then move on? What if thanking them does not go with the compliment? what else do i say? what if returning the compliment is not appropriate? sometimes conversations come to a screeching halt because i don't know how to respond. it's all my fault. i fear some days i'll stop getting compliments just because i said the wrong thing. I have another interview next week. i guess i'm not too worried because i don't want the job in some ways. in others though i want it more than anything. i don't know how to explain my situation with the interviewer. do I need to explain? How much do they need to know? What if something happens and they find out? What if they see my wrists? Will it make or break me? What if...what if?
