So I'm without a computer. I went and bought two journals. This one and one for dreams along with dream cards. this morning i went alone to get my new 20gb hard drive installed then when i got home, my sister was moving out and she asked me to help. i did a tiny bit and had to stop. she lefty an d my mother came home. my new 256mb, 100mhz ram and new battery arrived. after my mother left, my friend in Norway im'ed me to see if i could buy her a scale and mail it out to her. since the internet was of no help, I decided to go out shopping. it was to no avail. i did buy a few things though and it raised my spirits. i also bought, get this: "concentrated predigested protein." yeah, who ate it before me I wonder. i was able to mark off all new boxes on my anxiety/phobia checklist. they were: deep breathing technique, coping techniqu3est to manage panic, nurturing inner child, anti-stress supplements, used spiritual beliefs and practices to reduce anxiety. i love the idea of going back to paper. From
Augusta Gone by Martha Tod Dudman "But I also knew that you had to be away from me. That was what i said out loud to myself on walks that sad and furious winter that straggly spring. that's what i said to those few friends i could still stand to see. that's what i said to my therapist. she has to get away from me. because you had taken all of the darkness inside of yourself and smeared it on me. and i had become the reason for everything. i was your icon of wrongness. i was the one you could blame." Do i need to explain? i don't believe i do. maybe this is a good break, i was running out of things to do online anyhow. the only good aspect of Lisa being gone is that i don't have to worry about being too loud.
