School's coming back to me like a bat out of hell and I'm scared. I find my lack of sleep to come overwhelming. my mind needs a break from life...an eternal break. I feel so fake in this skin of mine. there is no time to prepare myself. my health is not well. months ago I fell down into the dark depths of hell and I've been working my way back. but this pack I carry is far too heavy. it gets more and more so with each step that I take. you wish that friends I would make. I am afraid. I have an incurable disease in my head. I feel deserted by my only link to life. these lies I carry are like rocks in my shoes. and I must choose between agony or fear. but I already hold them so dear to my heart that I cannot make a better start. I'm stuck in this circle of my useless life. hope is beyond my reach. as I fall. I live now listening to Satan preach.
