So when does sleep deprivation kick in? I haven't slept for three days. I don't have any desire to go back to my normal sleep pattern but...I don't know. I feel like if I sleep, I lose that much of my day so the less I sleep, the longer the day is and the longer it takes for tomorrow to come. My parents think I'm crazy. I can see it in their eyes. Maybe I am crazy. What is the clinical definition of being crazy? I'd be happy if someone told me I couldn't sleep. To get the effect they wanted, they would have to force me to sleep more than two hours in a day. I hate sleeping. It's useless and a way to forget for a while. In August I'll most likely lose Ren and B******'s going off to NYU. Can you say hospital? I was just watching Black Stallion and all it did was make me jealous. It's making me miss Ren even more. It's totally a control issue. I do it because this way I am controlling my sleep. I don't mind the mild fatigue that comes with drained energy and a mild case of sleep deprivation. At least not yet. If it gets much worse then I may think otherwise. But not yet
